TwInKLiNg aWaY

Long night

2006-02-24T10:17:00.000-08:00

i've just came back from expo not too long ago, the service ended later then expected so i reached home bout 12am yups. Initially i thot my parents were cool with it coz they didn't make a fuss, until my sis say had to itchy mouth add something which started the whole thing. but i noe she also dun mean it to be like dat.
Well my dad started reprimanding me.. say i always go against him =( then start digging up my bad habits, going thru them.. But wat hurt most was he ask me to choose him, family or church.. And then say i always becoz of me coz the family to be so sour, that i always bring the family misery.. And dat i never cared bout him and this family. Thats so unfair of him to say so. I noe i dun help out at hme much, i'm lazy, i give them trouble now and then. But i always do tink bout their feelings, and reflect how to be better and not anger them(although yes most of the times dosen't work), like he disapproves me to go cell groups or bible studies. Although i really want to and my cell mates always ask mi i never go, then he just now say i dive in go for all the things, rubbish. Later he got unreasonable, that i'm not old enuff and until then i (quote) "have to" live by his beliefs and his priorties, that he "controls" me like how "he also has to be controlled by his company" wats this!
I haven even bath or eaten he dun care just scold until almost 2am and its onli aft mi pleading wth him to stop coz i rrly cldn't take it (ani more i would have lost my control and screamed at him) This is not the first or second or third time have this kind of quarrels and i noe its hurting all of us, and my mami also ask me just give in. I'm so sorry Lord, i dun tink i'm strong enough any more. And i dun want to upset my parents animore. But i noe for sure i'll still be worshipping U in my heart, you'll always be my Abba Father=) and once daddy has no more control over me i'll be running back to church! And i noe its by the grace of God that amazingly during this fight i really didn't show my father attitude or talk back, which i have been trying to change yea! Praise the Lord! And God is a God of miracles so yes i will be praying. =)
Oh and mi blog time is screwed up, i duno how to adjust it hee..

Free Day!

2006-02-22T20:23:00.000-08:00

Today is i tink my ever first free day with nothing to do in the year 2006! hahaha.. Just withdrew from SA =( miss all mi jc mates.. On the last day mi wonderful CG made this huge huge byebye card for me, terribly sweet.. thanks you guys! =) hmm.. SA has definitely been a great experience doubt i'll ever forget it yups!
Yesterday went for a job interview with Hanqing pei and mi neighbour Samantha hahaha.. at P.S one of the restaurants called the Fish Market. Wah when we entered, they seem to be overstaff then under, quite a few were slacking at the corner and even zZz sleeping! hahaha.. not very nice leh even tho its not their peak hour haha. then the manager came his name is Leon i tink. Pretty nice guy but talk like a mouse like that, the music was louder than him, we three had to strain our ears to hear him wahahaha.. then when he said the pay was 4:50 an hr everyone satrted to switch off hahaha... so probably we're going for another interbiew at Cafe Cartel and sth like billybombers? on friday yups! Can't wait to start work hahahaha! i have no sense of balance it'll be interesting to see how i carry all the food and drinks hahaha.. poor customers i tink i'll be splashing who noes wat on them hehehe..
I recommend everybodi this korean love serial, My beloved Kim Sam Soon! its very nice! ichiban! hahahaha.. its so funny made me laugh and laugh and the love story its just sooo sweeeet! And the male leading actor wahhhh... hot man hahaha! <== there the one holding the rose hehehe.. Sam soon;s the one holding the stuff toy piggy. Must watch!
Recently i had a very strange dream.. hai.. its nice yet not nice.. i thot u won't ever appear animore.. its frustrating. i wonder why we dream wat we dream.. i doubt its random, whereby our brain just anihow create one but sth must have evoke a dream to be wat its is. Well i hope it'll be the last with u in it really coz when i wake up tho i'm smiling i feel really dumb and toopid haha.
okie i'm off cleaning my room which i owe to mi daddy mani mani years ago hahahaha! bye

LiFe in Sa

2006-02-15T02:10:00.000-08:00

Wah i've not post for very long again, dun tink anibodi will be reading mi blog alreadi, so i'm just like talking to myself hahaha.. =)
been in Sa for a month plus alreadi yups and the experience was great. The culture there is good, ppl are really friendly and nice (plus alot of cute guys hehe) and the teachers really try to get to noe u. i mean they really put in the effort. The only thing is some teachers just dunno how to teach hahaha... under their lecture u just get more confused. but somehow i still dun feel the attachment =( like even if i die tomoro most of mi new frens won't noe or even bother yup. but there's this one girl whom i clicked with almost instantly haha.. she's a natural joker, got 101 expressions see her face want to laugh alreadi. she's my Mulan and i'm her Mushu, She's B1 and i'm B2 haha! she's from mi Cg and i'll definitely miss her the most yups!
Going to get withdrawal form tomoro. Coz mi fwirst 6 chices are all poly so daddy says no point staying there, want mi to pack my pig sty room hahaha.. i will miss mi cca, soccer! hahaha.. was fun while it lasted. ^^ Soccer rawks! will miss the nice cafe and all the nice food especially the lychee ice drink Mmmm... Will like to say thanks to everybodi there! For making it such a wonderful memory that i will always carry in mi heart. Once a Saint aLwaes a Saint yeayea!
Just came back from chalet actually, spent v'dae decorating the room to surprise mi sis bf for his b'dae today(15th feb) it went out pwetty well. Neighbours, sis, her bf and i ate aLot! Pizza for like 10 ppl when there's only 5 of us and other dishes hahaha plus the chocolate burfdae cake wahaha feel so piggyish now. =)
Hai.. then once we reached home actually sll okie wan. den duno how come mi sis and her bf started quarelling then he left wthout taking his cake and prezzie. say breakup. but they like this alOt of time alreadi but sumhow this time feels very serious *pouts* then he called want to tok to mi sis, but sis dun want, so i become middleman. Not fun at AlL man.. hear them scold each other thru my ears haha.. i vewi worried for mi sis coz she's super attached to her this bf, same skool same cca, then his like in our home 4 days a week. its like every aspect of her live have him =( tho she now act act strong when the realisation kicks in that his really gone.. i'm really afraid its too much for her to take. hai.. asked her if she want to tok but she just say my own problem dun nd u care.. =( rrly hope its just a fight n they'll patch bck like they always do.
Love. untangeable. its like grasping air.

NeW bEgInninG

2006-01-09T00:16:00.000-08:00

Orientation just over on Friday! wOhooOo Sajc is not bad pretty fun yup yups! EspeciaLLy the last day everybodi was on high hahaha.. had cheer and skid competition between tribes (i'm in ArUba^^) Mi tribe won the best mascott! hahaah and is my OG do one yeahyeah! its really super nice! Can see the coke can? hahaha! our mascott woo!
wah and sajc have alOt of good lo0king people heehee.. Farhid on the first day was like "wah so many pretty girl *cheeky grin*" hahahaha! the guys also *thumbs u* =p okay mi OG peeps are all pretty nice yups got only eight guys and 16 gurls hahaha... umm.. lessons have started now but its really super slack. one day have more free periods then lectures, tink when they assign us properly to our class then will really start. kae i going to watch show with mi mami now hahaha.. take care everybodi.. i miss bp.. i really do.. peng you men lets really do our best to keep in touch! *hugs* ;)

PhilipPine Trip WeeEe

2005-12-17T08:59:00.000-08:00

HahaHa! I came back from phiLlipines almost a week ago already hahaha.. so may not really do justice to the woNderfUL trip :) Went there on the 6th came back on the 11th yups went to Makati in Manila.. Its about 3-4 hr flight if i'm not wrong haha.. first thing u'll feel tho is the racism.. they dun like chinese especially Singaporeans ;/ (coz they tink all singaporeans abuse our maids, i tink) haha.. on the airplane can feel already. The philappino guy airsteward very un friendly to us.. but ok to the other philappinos. Initially some thot we were japanese or Korean so they greet us like konichiwa or anyong ha-seh-yo. then when we say we are singaporeans their smiles just wipe out from their faces and they "oh" and nvr talk to us already... hmph.. But thats only some lah hahaha.. We did meet philappinos whom were just super friendly! Like Uncle Mario he was our driver for one day, he sent us here and there to do our shopping haha..
Oh ya, my neighbour sam also followed us ^^ really fun with her around! She's like super funny and always laughing. oh anyway, the gurls we did our shopping straight away after we toched down hahaha.. and let me tell you the malls they are gigantic, hugE! moster size! A normal mall is like the size of suntec and their mega mall are like three suntecs put together yupyups. And even on a weekday mid afternoon the malls can be pretty pack. hahaha make us wonder whether the ppl there need to work wan anot? haha..
We spend most of our days there shopping ^^ ok some may say eee then where got fun but it really is! coz i nvr shop for so mani things for myself (not using mi own money =p) ever before hahaha!! i had the most 'shou huo' haha! went there with only three set of clothes and came back luggage jam packed full same goes for everyone hahaha..
also we went to the theme park!!! We sat two roller coasters they were pretty scary but painful as well hahaha! our heads kept slaming and bouncing off the side handles *ouch* we sat magic carpet something like viking but it goes 360 degress and we went tinto three haunted houses!! mwahahaha!!! it was more shocking then frightening but it did make us scream like cRaAzzeee! haha it scared mi neighbour so much she ran, slip and slide on her knees to mi mami's leg hahaha! the mummies or ghost will just jump up! and things will come down and touch our head or sweep past us in the dark. We saw this boneless boifren screaming and hiding behind his gurlfren haha! so freakin gay lah hahaha.. another mother dragged her crying son into it.. so bad..
Another very memorable thing was went we took a ride up this mountain (opps forgot the name hee..) the view from the top was just breath taking! so pretty, so amazing! (just proves to show the wonder of God^^) we went up the mountain to reach this vege farm where we literally just eat veg for lunch hahaha.. plucked fresh from the gardens, it was yummylishcious!I Love my greens! hahaah! oh we saw a still active small volcano from the top too!
What made me tink and really reflect upon life there were the slums and poor people just living on the streets.. Children, even jst toddlers are made to walk on the dangerous roads (which were really crazy in philippines, cars there just moved the way tey like, mi mami say if she were to drive there her hair would turn white.) selling stuff or just begging. One man even held an infant in his arms to go out on the mad streets to beg. It just very heart-breaking. hai then we look in the car with all our bags from shopping.. make me feel so bad and also feel so blessed in everyway. Thank you God. Makes me want to cherish the short life that i have even more yups and do more for others!
okie i 'm really tired now *yawns* nite nite!

FIRst eVer jOb

2005-12-13T09:06:00.000-08:00

hahaha! Started work on mi first ever job a few days ago in mi uncle's comany as a surveyer with AnQi yupyups! Today was mi 4th day. Hehe coz its mi uncle's company i was allowed to still go on a hol trip to philippines just after 2 days of work hehehe!
Initially, the first day was really painful, AQ and i didn't like it esp AQ hahaha! wanted to almost quit just on the first day. oh ya its a shop to shop survey so yup we are the irritating ppl hu bug the shopkeepers hahaha but we try to be as painless to them as possible ^^Have to walk and walk and tok and tok and smile and smile al0t hahaha.. drove us crazy. And some ppl are just pretty hard to tok to but most of them are nice yups!
The 2nd day another colleague joined us ancus hahaha he's a full timer and he teach us how to slack hahaha dat lazy man! had an hr+ long coffe break ;( felt bad after dat haha..went to suntec dat day so mani posh shops felt so weird to go in and intrude yups.
Now i feel the jobs actually not bad at all! the no. of strangers i've tokked to this past few days is much more than the no of strangers i've tokked to my whole 16 yeras of life i tink hahahaha! we get to shop shop sum times too tee hee so notti ya. =p and luckily got AQ so i'm not bored at all, super fun to tok to u dearie hahaha and find out so Mani thiNgs hahaha! ya so i'm practically tokking the whole day wahahaha! coz we go to mani shopping centres we meet whoever we know dats working in that building haha.. like today we met Denise, Edmund and Jiamin and yesterday had lunch with Mavis hahahaha!!! oh oh and now its even better coz our lady boss allow us to just start survey and dun nd to report to the office in the morn tee hee! so instead of waking up at 7:30 i can wake up at 9:30 now HahAha!! Thank you Uncle Louis for this job!
People can really tink of funny things when we come to them. One aunty thot that we were actually undercovers from their company to check up on them or something hahahaha.. Some tink our Qs would b an intrusion to their companies confidential info when they just hear the word P.O.S (computer based cash register system) which is not at all lah haha.. Some brush us of saying got camera or need papers or that we are just out to get their numbers :S or that this Qs w e use our IQ can already hahaha.. but some are ultra nice! they really brighten our days being funny and nice :D Super intersting people..
alrights i'm heading for bed now! i'll write bout mi trip to philippines tomorrow! it was really great! okie good nights!
OHHH yes and The most imprtant thing! I recieved Christ and got saved on the 4th Dec 2005 (thank u Colby *hugs*) and i never ever felt better! my Life is so much more meaningful and purposeful i feel so much more aware bout everything! I LOve YOu JESUS!

Bye bye O's!

2005-11-19T03:05:00.000-08:00

wow its been super uber long since i last wrote in hehe sorry everybodi =P
Still can't believe o's just ended a few hours ago, its like just yesterday i was doing up a study plan (which was totally of no use coz i didn't follow hehe) and now all the boxes have been crossed and i can finally satisfy my urge of ripping it apart hahaha!
The exams were easier than prelims but some how i really do feel i'll do worse ;S uh oh.. and alot of crappy stuff happen which was all coz of this soggy, ding dong head of mine. hai! i'm so ultra blurr i also cannot tahan myself.. Firstly on the Eng papers i forgot to bring mi whole wallet no ic nor ez link card ;( went to find tiger and he refused to help me at first, the general office ppl also refused to help me to, i almost just wanted to squat down and cry right there coz the paper start alrady yet no one could help or tell me wat to do. Later i decided to go back up find mr Chan, than that tiger scold me again "where do you think you're going! blah blah blah.." nag and nag and finally and thankfully he signed a form for me, but the paper started already.
Another incident was on physics paper i was wearing a one hour late watch and i didn't know. So at 1:30 (paper started at 2) i was still at home relaxing coz i thot it was onli 12:30 hahaha! Thank God i looked at other clocks in mi house in time and manage to get a taxi and the driver was nice enough to speed all the way for me and i made it on time whew! Got a fright of my life.
If you think that was blurr hah! On the amath paper 2 i thot it started at 2 but actually 8 in the morning and the night before i still happily revised my history thinking i still have time the next morn to go thru amath. Thank God again i somehow asked mi mami to wake mi up at 6a.m which was unusually earlier and so happen that morning i went to take a look at mi entry proof again and saw the actual time the paper started hahaha.. i really so blurr so toot even mi papa call mi sotong, hai really cannot live alone if not i sure die wan hahaha..
But thats all over now!! hehehe!! wooOwEee!! holidays are here!! finally Free fREe! haha.. got so many things i want to do want to try! duno where to start! oh just a few hours ago was mi mami's burfday so hAppy BuRfday MUM! LuRf yOU!
ok think i'll end here and hope to write in again some time soon hahaha..

SYF daNce pErForManCe :)

2005-07-30T18:38:00.000-07:00

Yesterday went to catch the sYf dance performance yeah! Initially i didn't want to go so mi tickets went to PiNg, den last minute i felt lyk going again hahaha.. reallie tough to find an extra ticket called and msg so mani peeps and finally got one from Ali!! yosh! thank you!! thank U very much!! hahaha.. treat u lunch on fri cannot say no ya heehee..
It was held at Kallang and the getting there was so pek cek haha.. i left late so i ran out of mi house to the mrt and unknowingly mi fly came open *blush*.. i didn't find out until after the jurong mrt stop when i sat down and saw .. dat.. ya. wha super paiseh! no wonder people were looking at mi just now (and i thot it was coz i looked good hAhAHAha.. kidding =p). and when i was sitting down there was this old malay woman, she kept smiling and smiling at mi, i thot she was being nice.. but now i noe.. hahahha..
As i was afraid i would b pretty late i asked the rest to leave without mi first as we initially planned to meet at the douby ghout to take a bus from there. hai.. as i have a tendency to always get myself lost, i took the right bus but on the wrong side (-__-) and furthermore i sit until so shuang so long still never realised hahaha.. until i asked the guy stitting next to mi who was about to get off. den as i panicked and rushed to get off the bus as well, i couldn't find my wallet. The bus uncle waited for me and i could sense everyone was staring at mi with a (wa lau faster lah) so i asked the uncle to leave first.. i alighted on the next stop and had no idea where i was, i remembered the bus passing world trade centre? i tink, but dat was quite a number of stops ago.. by then i was pwetty late alreadi and i didn't want the rest to be waiting for mi so i took a cab. The taxi driver knew i was in a hurry so he say he take dunno wat way the traffic very fast wan, but in the end the traffic was ssooo s----L---o---w m---o---v---i---n---g, i tink i run faster hahahaha.. wanted to say sth to spite the uncle but the uncle was rather nice, he chatted with mi abit n stuff, so i bit my tongue instead.. I managed to reach in time in the end! yeah!
Sat with Xihong and Yenzi, the performance was really amazing!! the dances were performed by just secondary skools and jcs but they danced lyk they were professionals, really good! except sum the more cultural type i didn't noe how to appreciate hehe.. hmm i tink mi fav were Rv, njc and the St magret's performances *thumbs up* After the show the bus stop was packed with people so a bunch walked to the bus stop before the crowded one so clever rite! hahaha no one was there ^^ onli after a while den a group of people came after us yup.
okie i tink have to get back to mi work now, gd luck to everyone for next week's CT! and today is denise's buRfdaY!! Happie B'DAy gurl!!

my first ReaL enTry hehe..

2005-07-29T01:02:00.000-07:00

yeah i finally post sumthing teehee.. firstly xie xie anqi deardear for putting in the tag for mi and writing so mani posts for me when i have not even written anithing yet, its a good feeling to see sumone tag ya hahaha thanx again! *hugs* ohh i just watched finish inuyasha and shaman king on arts central! reallie suPer nice ^^ can't wait for tomorrow's episodes hehehe..i urge everyone to watch wooh! hmm.. today was a gReat day, i never felt sleepy the whole day yeah! mayb coz todae the kuku gurl (anqi) sitting next today wth mi very higH hahaha... haha got love headache, too many to choose, who ask you so chio and lovable haha.. hmm.. today after skool seowken, sarah and mi suppose to do a secret task but have to b postponed till sat or sun. Coz skool ended pwetty late and also coz i forgot bring sumthing heex.. sorry! =P hehe!

back at home i went mi neighbour's house, SaMantha, to study but ended up watching the you know last time on channel8 swimming show with toro, the mvp guy and alot of hott celebs lyk fiona xie? ya dat one, she just bought the vcd yup. Even tho watch before still pretty nice, still very pek at dat evil gurl, yilin, grr.. oh and mi neighbour's lil' bro super notti hahaha! he ran around the house naked coz he didn't want to bath *laughs* very notti but very cute also :)

hmm.. mi mami in Bangkok now, having holiday with her friends. i miss her but not her nagging hahahaha! hope she's having a w0nderfuL time and hope she buy lots and lots of neat stuff for mE! ahahaha! okie i tink i haf to go finish sum stuff and hit the bed alreadi.. nites!

hi

2005-06-23T06:19:00.000-07:00